I sort of feel like I'm falling apart. Ya know, physically I feel like an old woman about to resign to the grave. (Ask me about the big boil thing on my face). Mentally, I just don't feel so SMRT. And, emotionally, don't make me cry, I am warning you.
So this is why I'm looking on the bright side:
- After a cold & cloudy morning at the beach yesterday with our friends (that was the good part of the day), Kalem and I rode the bus back to our car alone, and after putting him in the carseat and shutting his door, I realized I locked him in! Practically naked without a cell phone, I waved down a nice lady driving her car (Bless her!) and as the words came out of my mouth, I couldn't hold back the sob, "I locked my baby in the car!". The scary thing is that I could not control myself! After borrowing her cell phone and waiting for 2 nice policemen, and a AAA guy to rescue me, let me list the bright side to my emotional trauma (as a result of my mental relapse):
- it was a very cloudy & cold day, so for the 40 minutes that my baby was in the car he was not going to suffocate.
- we skipped his morning nap to play at the beach, so he was exhausted and fell asleep 2 minutes after I put him in his carseat, so he slept through the whole ordeal.
- God put that very kind lady in my path so that I didn't have to have a break down in front of too many strangers.
Also, on the bright side of the boil: even though it is on my face and I can't hide it, at least it's smaller than my nose.
One more. On the bright side of Kalem's haircut that I butchered last week. It's already growing in and he seems to have forgotten all about it. Plus, he's so cute naturally, I don't think people have even noticed that the back of his head looks like a Vanilla Ice cancer patient.
Uh, that's all I can think of right now.
Trae Trae
13 years ago
7 comments:
Oh Chelise, I wish I could just give you a hug. Trust me, their will be plenty more days like that, but just take them one at a time. I would suggest taking it a little easier. It sounds like your body is a bit stressed. I know it's hard to be pregnant with a little one that is soooo busy. You need to come up with things he enjoys that doen't take too much effort on your part. Next the feeling not so smart... I've come up with a theory that the more kids you have to dumber you get. I think this is due in part to lack of adult conversation and critical thinking. You're just doing the basics- cook, play, clean, sleep. If you can get a book to read. Something you normally wouldn't or something you've been dying to read. Let me reccomend Dr. Laura's book about Say at Home Mom's. Anyhow, you'll get through this. One day at a time. Just think 6 weeks after your little one comes you will have CONTROL again:) Love you
Sorry that you're feeling like such a mess. I would lose it too if Liam was stuck inside a hot car. There definitely were some very BRIGHT sides to that whole situation...so I'm really glad for that. I thought about this story about 5 times yesterday as I was getting Liam in and out of the car. I tried to be very careful about where I put my keys. Yikes! So scary!
That's like you! To find the 'bright side'! Oh that story brought back many memories of motherhood. I love more and more what Grandma C says, "We raised our kids on our knees"...cause so many experiences like that bring you to your knees with prayers for help, then prayers of thanks. I love you! MOm C
and please...'dumb' isn't a good work...'overwhelmed' is the culprit.
AHHHHHHHHHH Scary Scary Scary. You handled the situation beautifully! Chelise, you're doing just fine. Keep up the good work!
I'm so sorry that happened. I am always afraid that I'm going to do that. I'm sure you're not the first person to have done that. I'm sorry things are kind of rough right now. I'm sure they'll start getting better soon! Hang in there!
you are way too funny! ...i've locked mia in the car b/4...not so fun...
Bless your heart, Chelise. It did bring back memories of when I locked jason and Jeff in the car. Jason was 18 months and Jeff was a newborn. The car was running, no less. Fortunately, we were across the street from a fire station. I expect that they see these things a lot. I loved your list of bright things. You are going to be just fine. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. You make me smile.
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